My Open Diary

I had an anxiety attack today.  But you wouldn't be able to tell because of my happy-go-lucky smile in this selfie!  This photo was taken earlier when I felt as though I had a lovely start to my day: I got to take a walk and drink a coffee with my mama, the weather was sunny and warm, and I felt the fuel in my heart after reading some awesome Bible scriptures.  My spirit was light and I was walking to a rhythm of contentment. When you're in the peak of an anxiety attack, it feels almost impossible to maintain self control.  This looks different for everyone, but usually it falls in some category of impulsive behavior derived from an explosion of emotions.  You may say ugly things, hyperventilate, shake back and forth aggressively, cry hysterically, and sometimes feel the tug to be physical.  These behaviors come and go; they are very brief.  Like any untamed situation, it has a peak then it quickly passes. When it passes, you are left feeling q...

I don't know who needs to hear this but God wants you to keep pushing. Keep pushing. Keep pushing. God is telling you to "keep pushing, son.  Keep pushing, daughter.  I am with you." Emotions are powerful, important, and justified.  While we are entitled to feel our emotions, we will not accept defeat.  Our emotions can make us feel defeated, but we're not going to allow defeat to take the victory. Something may have been working out, but now it's not.  If that's the case, then know that God has something better.  He always does. "Why me?  Why is this happening to us?  Why isn't this working out?" Combat those feelings with faith, friend.  This is urgent.  These are not empty words.  I'm not speaking to a specific issue because you are already filling in the blank.  Combat those feelings with faith-you know what it is.  Faith should always go before our feelings. It's a struggle right now.  But I have conf...